Making sense

Anne Lamott, on writing ...

"We are a species that needs and wants to understand who we are. Sheep lice do not seem to share this longing, which is one reason why they write so little. But we do. We have so much we want to say and figure out.”

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Day Three of nutritious eating ~

The third day is here, and I am already slipping.
Here it is, almost 7 p.m., and I haven't walked yet. It's too humid, too too moist and sticky; I always feel like I'm going to pass out in this kind of weather. I have, however, done my leg/butt pilates, and I have NOT eaten down the house. Yet. Those days have got to be over. It's by eating the world that I ended up weighing 242.6 pounds.


7 a.m. Black Coffee
I awoke with horrible lower abdominal cramping/lower back cramping; probably an ovarian cyst misbehaving ... the pain was a definite 6/7 on the pain scale ... no way was I going to be able to eat within 20 minutes of waking ...

Noon: Microwaved egg/ toasted English muffin/processed American cheese slice
See how the "cheating" begins? It begins with a single slice of American processed cheese. Next thing you know, I'll be ordering the enchilada platter at Rancho Grande and having ice cream in that big fat cereal bowl.

1:30 p.m. Another freaking kolache, all in the name of sampling a local bakery's offering. Also, drank a Diet Pepsi (grrrrr; must get off that poison!)

2:15 p.m. Hungry. Microwaved Weight Watchers' macaroni and cheese (7 pts.)

5 p.m. Just applied online for a communication arts opening here in Liberty. I know that teaching is my calling; I also know that writing is my passion; I know that grading kids' papers takes away my writing time; must find discipline to do both! Think of all the "big-name" writers who took English positions to support their families until their writing was published often enough to provide ... . I've been VERY down in the disappointing dumps, so it came as a surprise that I felt happy/confident working on my cover letter/resume ~ I do know that I need to work. I am too sociable to stay at home with the dogs and cat. Unless they talked and could play SCRABBLE with me.

7:30 p.m. Homemade tuna salad ... delish!

1 comment:

Cindy said...

It's not a sprint, it's a marathon on healthy eating and exercise. You will have off days and how you react the next day determines if you have success or not! Hang in there!